hey bruv. havent known what to wright (still not sure, kind of in the same boat as alot of people, but hear goes a skatter brain atempt). you were such a huge part of my life (as in the first 18 years), and i miss you teribly. theres no big bro to say "dont tell dad" anymore or lead me (and my mates) astray. the smallest things are realy what hits you hardest, a smell, a sound, a place. you should see my hands shake wile i wright this, youd be laughing your arse off. so many good memories, getting smashed on free wine at dads graduation, meeting warious official types at private views (again with plenty of free wine), never turn down a good thing hu. theres no matt's house to escape to when i needed to get away from things (such as reality). i miss you dude. all my love boo XXXXXXX p.s. can i have my sound card back