Hard to put things into words, itís just that feeling that wells up inside until it bursts out, wanting you to be there, watching a band and wishing you could dance with me, seeing someone tall walking with that familiar jaunt and for a second thinking maybeÖItís that wanting to share things with you, looking at a photo and remembering happy times, making me smile until I then dissolve.I look at the stars at night and think of you, sometimes with a smile and other times with a tear, but always with love. Some of me has gone with you, and I canít yet wrap myself around that cos itís too huge to encompass, but I try. The unreality of reality slaps me in the face here and there, and I miss you and grieve for the loss of you, but also know youíre okay and wish you well, so very very well.Love you Mattybub.Mum x